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How Do You Define Your Gray?
If you google the word “gray” you can imagine the millions of things that will come up. From a basic description of the color to the definition of “gray matter” (referring to the color of the brain which is also why it represents brain tumor awareness), there are many ways you can view gray!
I googled the word for an entirely different reason besides this blog, but one definition caught my eye. It said that gray equals conformity. It described this conformity as saying that “it adapts to any other color. It will look either dark or light, depending upon the color next to it.”
That last description is what made me stop in my tracks. “It will look either dark or light, depending on the color next to it.”
Isn’t that the way of the world (or at least our world) when having a brain tumor?
While I certainly don’t associate brain tumors with conformity, the notion that it conforms to either the light or the dark – perhaps this says something about how we interpret our personal journeys.
I can say one thing for certain, I’ve had plenty of darks and lights since being diagnosed 18 years ago, and possibly every shade in between!
Surgery, radiation, chemotherapy…those are all of the darks. How about long term effects or fears we now have that we didn’t have before? Those are dark grays for sure.
But what about beating the odds or achieving personal milestones? Are those some of the lighter shades?
This definition also made me think of how we have the ability to put our own colors next to our or our loved one’s diagnosis. Of course there are many darks that we can’t control but we can certainly color other situations however we want to. An experienced family can mentor a newly diagnosed family who may only see the color black at the time. A survivor can revel in their accomplishments that take them more effort to achieve than their peers, yet means much more to them.
As we enter May 2013, also brain tumor awareness month, I think it’s important to recognize both the dark and the lights of what we have to deal with every day. Simply by spreading knowledge and making our voices heard, we are bringing a new shade of light to brain tumor awareness.